Changing schools again is such an awful idea. I'm not hyped up about San Roque anymore, and just thinking about that application proccess makes me cringe. An interview, and essay, a test, 100 wasted dollars...all for nothing because my grades are mostly Fs.
Am I truly and utterly alone in my non-support of school? Is it really that strange not to believe in it? I know there are other people that have unschooled. My family makes me sound like a babbling looney when I bring it up. "We're not doing this flakey thing where we have to teach you," or "It doesn't work," or "Practice asking 'would you like fries with that?'."
I've considered living on my own. The only obstacle there is getting a decent job, and whose first job is decent, let alone profittable? I will get a job, but I'll have to sell something on the side--jewelry? clothing? photographs?--mais all the money will ultimately go towards the Costa Rica trip. Ainsi, the whole "on my own" thing simply will not work.
My parents' arguments against unschooling have made me really question its benefits. Are they true about its credibility in terms of education? For example, how would I learn math? I think math is so, terribly important and that school should exist for that reason alone. And what about history? If I learn life skills and about the world around me, does its importance outweigh a curriculum? What would I do with my time?
Even though unschooling is clearly not an option, I ought to read up on the subject so I know exactly how I would employ it. If it isn't applicable in my life then why do I support it? There are numerous publications as well as hoards of intelligent and (I think) successful supporters.
I have never been an academic. Dropping everything I commit to just to find an answer sounds like a pattern that my family should end. Maybe I should drop the system and commit to myself; there's no way out of that!
